SUICIDE OF CAPTAIN BALLE.

Ashburton Guardian, Volume VII, Issue 2199, 14 August 1889, Page 2

SUICIDE OF CAPTAIN BALLE.

The following ia tha test of the lottor a&dfossed (o hie gbrothe? by Oap ! aln Bai!o, who shot h'insntC ai Hopfct on Saaday nlghh :— <% Weil, I gußss I h«ve rnn the lengih.of my tetfce? aisd ttAUA, I h?.vo n-tt beoa at all well for & long timo, and Boom to get woroo. I aotna. times foel quite giddy and feverish. Pe?---h *po I oould get wall by (going to the Hospital, only to got sick again. I think It far the best pian to pack up and avoid it &\]i Would have dona ho long ago, only it requires courage We have all the instluot to ollug to life, miserable though It may be, expmtfng something which never ocmoF. A.t eny rate, in my case, there oaa be no or I mo. No ono la depending opon ma for a livlag. No one will rsgret my departure. I was n9ver bleß3od wllh tha gift of making frleuda. I found It oat yoara ago that I was a nasty disagreeable fellow whoao company peoplo did not o«a maoh for, , bo have kept prety mach to myaelf the ' last fi7e yaata. I think that blow I bad many years ago has had • lot to do with It. I oould never forget her., I never toH yon maoh aboot It. Well never mind let It die with me. Life has not been a plenure to me for many years, and I am tare there is no pleasure to look forward to. Poverty acd • miserable lonelj old age. I reckon It is far more sensible to paok np and skit now before 1 lose nhat little I have th»n wait till it Is all gone. What little I have will help yon on yoqr dre*ry journey. You m«y be able to take ia a reef and sa'.l a little easier. Ton will fiod a will In a tin In the top drawer. I know yoar troubles will ba that I shall go to bell. Well, if I believed in Buoh nonsense, I should preftie th*t place t" the oonap^ny of td'o'e, rantera, and Salvation howlera, o'o. 'Well, yon and I never agreed oa that point, but you rotntsmbar, what I told you befora ( that the only difference between us h this ; — Too try (as I did for yours) to make yourself believe that you know nothiog at all about it. I have tried to do what ia right, «nd sometimes failed. I never posed for • saint. The future I dread not, and the eternal Sabbath, with psalm, harp, sing' lag, and playing I have no wish for. Yes, if iha Sibbatha were the same as when kq were at Home, with music, flinging, and danolng I wou'd say ' yes ' by, all means ; iiat the Eaglioh Sabbatb, no thank you. No, 'that would be he<l, indeed, or purgatory. Well, you will pleaee me by wearlog no orapo." There was no fear of deseaaed dying to poverty, as he bad landed property In Napier, money in tba Bink and at inierest. Deoeaßed was a Dine,