what is best for us and if he should see it right to take her from me, dreadful as the loss would be to me, I must strive to submit to his will with patience but my darling husband I am wrong in writing this way to you. I am afraid it will make you unhappy but I felt when I sat down to write to you that I must tell you all my feelings. Dear Mama may not after all be so ill as I imagine. It may be that my anxiety for her causes me to fancy that she looks worse than she really is. I am going up tomorrow morning to Mama's whenever breakfast is over and to spend all the day with her. I have now returned nearly all my visits. I went on Monday with Miss Hart to call for all the people at the other end and I went with Miss Kelly today to call for those on the Terrace and flat. I have only to call for Mrs McDonald, Mrs Carkeek and Mrs Smith. I am so glad to hear that your rheumatism is better for I have been quite uneasy about it. How unfortunate this bad weather has been for you but I am glad that you were