must go you will be able to come in here first. I have been looking forward with so much pleasure to the happiness of seeing you soon that it will be a great disappointment if you cannot come but perhaps I am making myself uneasy about what may never happen. When I hear from you I may find that there is no foundation for my fears. Should you however be obliged to go it cannot be helpt. I must submit to the disappointment as patiently as I can. It is annoying this disturbance has happened just now. It is really very strange that since ever we have been engaged first one thing and then another occurs to keep you away from me. I hope however if we are spared that we will have many years of happiness before us and all this will then be forgotten. The report which you heard about me not looking well is quite true for I was very unwell for some time. In writing to you I did not