me you may do so. Do not then risk your life. If I were to hear that you were coming in a vessel I would be perfectly miserable and it might do me great suffering but I need say no more. I feel certain that you will take care of yourself for my sake. Do not feel any anxiety for me whatever trials our Heavenly Father may see fit to send me. I know he will give me strength to bear them all. On him I place all my reliance and He will never forsake those who put their whole trust in him. Do not then dearest be afraid for me when you know that I am in God's protection you have nothing to fear. I must now conclude for it is late. May every blessing be with you and believe me my dearest Donald. Your ever affectionate wife Susan D McLean Monday evening [ca Oct 1851]