However love if it should please God to spare us both you must give a little of your affection to my poor baby. You need not be jealous that I will like it better than you for my Donald knows that nothing in this world can be as dear to me as him whom I have loved so long. You have no idea my darling how devotedly attached I am to you. You are scarcely ever out of my thoughts. How I wish my own love that you were at home. I would feel so happy. I must now say good night. Monday morning I must add a few more lines this morning before I send my letter down to Papa. I am wearing so much to hear again from my old plague but as the wind has been south east for the last few days. I am afraid no vessel will come in and I shall not hear till Friday. I feel so vexed that you will not be with me on Saturday. It is really